“I felt darkness while praying to be saved!”

My neighbors are awful. Is it okay to wish they didn’t come home? I felt so much darkness when I was praying for salvation 20 years ago. Now I look back, and I’m scared it wasn’t legitimate! Why does John 8 say the disciples needed to “abide” or “continue” in His word?

“God only forgives forgiving people?”

What does the parable of the unforgiving servant really mean? Does God only forgive us if we are nice to others? What are your thoughts on Roman Catholics who are in the sin-confess-repeat cycle?